demmit. my friends still remember about my blog.

and they read.

and the laugh.

jdfjuwegfukjegkgk

dear pojan and miera,or maybe alia,if you're reading this,

i hetchuuu    

*larimasukbilikdudukbelakangpintu*

:D

i am very HAPPY to find out that there're people who still read my blog!yeayyy thank youu thank youuu.i'll make sure to be more rajin to write more.till next post!bubyee

*i have two test coming this week before going back to perlis.wish me luck!*

fat.

for those who do not know,i am fat.yeah like really fat.and being a fat person, the most frequently asked question for me is 

'bila nak kurus?'

'taknak diet ke?'

'macam makin gemuk je?'

and etc etc

kalau orang kurus tak suka orang gemuk,ingat orang gemuk suka ke?not that i hate myself.its just that i am comfortable being me.TAPI.orang buat aku tak suka diri sendiri.at one time i love myself being cute (denial mode) and another time i fell like omaigod you are fat nora you dont look good in anything everybody is beautiful except you.

tipu lah kalau aku cakap tak teringin nak kurus.but then i love food.and they love me too.haha.okay seriously.i hate those diet that i only can eat one time and i have to starve for the whole night etc etc.i read some articles and they said that i should have enough calories for me to do my daily activities so why on earth i cannot eat?!

actually as a fat person i love to do activities you know?i love jogging (read:walking) .i love those home workout plank lunges jump rope and whatsoever.TAPII.i prefer doing the activities especially jogging with someone.i've been to denai larian alone and joging sorang2 suck you know?i'm being too paranoid that each people who jog beside me was saying something bad at me.

'euww lemak bergerak'

'dah gemuk baru nak joging?'

padahal they dont even notice me pftt.paranoid much huh? back in perlis it was easier for me to do those activities.dalam bilik sorang2 apadahall nak lompat macam mana pun.and i have eton to teman me joging (more like walking actually but fast walk ehehehe) .tapiii kat sini duduk apartment.kang aku lompat satu bangunan bergegar T_T .nak joging pun tasik jauhh.i'm not giving excuses but joging kat tempat yang sepatut wayy much better than joging around blok.more people looking.kat tasik tu semua buat hal masing2. *toomanyexcuseshuh?*

next week balik rumah.lets see if aku rajin ke tak nak buat activity.

usha

so..yesterday i had lunch at the usual place and as usual i will be the first one to finish eating.so while waiting for my friends to finish, i look around and usha everyone that had their lunch there. andd suddenly i stumble upon this one man *eheheeheee* doing his work writing something in his notebook/file/whatever i don't know what it is called but i know it is work related. he was so focused and he look so macho and cute! *insertgatalgirlhere*. he also kidal and suddenly i found that kidal man is attractive!hahaha. and i was curi-curi usha hoping he didnt realise.


ok thats it.nak bagitahu tu je hahaha till next entry!


*nope he is not my new crush i didnt even remember his face today kahkah*

so yeah.

its 2014 and i am so frustrated that most of my favourite blog don't have any new post anymore..well hellooo you guys still have readers okay?

then it comes to my mind that me myself is soo malas and already stop updating my own blog,no wonder others too kan? i even think of deleting my blog! but then there are too much memories that i wrote here and most of the pictures i put in here i don't have it anymore so looks like my blog is going to stay hee

so yeahh. here i am with new semangat to get back to blogging. even though i know i might the only one that read but naahh i don't care. i just want to write. hopefully after this entry there will be more.



*secretely wish my friends already forgot my blog anddddd my new classmates wont discover this blog!*

minggu ini

1.esok weesak.selamat menyambut kepada yang menyambut.

2.minggu ni tak berapa baik sangat untuk aku.face few problems.lepas tu tiket bus nak balik perlis habis.padan muka jumaat malam baru nak balik.kalau tak khamis malam aku dah boleh chow *sigh*

3.ohh ya ohh ya!benda yang bagi aku happy sikit minggu ni pun markah test qmt aku ok.tu pun sebab open book test actually.tapi open book pun kalau tak paham tak boleh jawab jugakk haa maka syabas untuk diri sendiri sebab subject tu boleh senget kepala bila study sebab susah *selfhighfive*

4.skill pemanduan aku masih dikritik.lemah sangat aku ni *doublesigh*

5.oh semalam aku dah tengok fast 6.gigih suruh faiz belikan tiket.tengok berjemaah dengan classmates.AWESOME BAQ HANG!ni dalam hati macam nak tengok lagi sekali ni

6.macam yang aku pernah cakap kat sini(or kat twitter or kat fb?ntah mana2 la) kadang2 aku rasa orang macam lupa kot yang aku ada perasaan.keep hurting me.haih.

7.aku makin selesa hidup dalam dunia sendiri.tapi macam tak boleh dibiarkan sangat.takut nanti tak pasal2 jadi social recluse pulek

8.classmate aku beli s4.aku jeles.

itu rumusan perasaan setakat ini.sekian.

sometimes it is good to be alone.less pain.less pressure.but there will be less fun la kan?but then sampai bila nak gelak ketawa suka ha ha setiap masa?perasaan tu pelbagai.bukan sekadar suka.kena bagi peluang untuk perasaan lain untuk berfungsi jugak kan?

*sigh*

dan sekarang aku kena belajar untuk survive sorang2.kena lalui hidup sorang2.kena berani.tak boleh nak terlalu bergantung harap pada kawan.sebab kawan tu ada hidup sendiri.ada life masing2.bukan setiap masa kawan tu akan ada dengan kita.sampai satu masa seorang pun tak ada dengan kita.mungkin masa tu kita akan rasa kecewa.but then itu norma kehidupan.kekecewaan tu perasa tambahan hidup.live your live with it.